Updated: Aug 14, 2022
Image by Aislinn O'Keeffe
I actually have 2 coming out stories — first, I came out as a lesbian in November 2016. Then, I came out as genderfluid this past April 2020. Both of my coming out stories are very technology-based, which makes sense given that I’m a millennial (and right on the cusp of being Gen Z!)
When I came out as a lesbian, it was right after the US elections where Trump became president. I had realized I was gay a few months prior to that, but once Trump was elected, it seemed more important than ever to be real with the world about who I am — and be loud and proud instead of silent and scared.
I was invited by my college to write an “election reflection” piece for our school paper, and in it, I told the world that I’m gay. This news was well-received by everyone, but I did eventually realize that I might have preferred telling my close family and friends individually first, rather than having them find out alongside complete strangers. At the time, I assumed there would be no more coming outs for me, and so there was no point in thinking about what I would have done differently. But, a few short years later, I felt the nagging feeling that there was something deeper about myself — specifically my gender — that I couldn’t quite place. I did feel like a woman a lot of the time, but then there were also times when I knew firmly that “woman” wasn’t the best word to describe me.
After a lot of research and watching YouTubers & Instagrammers share their stories, I realized that the word “genderfluid” best described me… and suddenly, I realized I would have to come out again if I wanted people to fully know me.
This was really scary at first — it’s a lot to put yourself out there, especially when you’ve only recently discovered who you are! But then I realized this was a chance to be closer with my family and friends and allow them to lift me up and support me.
So I sent a text message to a few people, explaining that I’d found a better word to describe my gender than “woman,” but I’m still the same Zoe they’ve always known and loved. I was met with resounding love and support, and I felt so, so happy (and relieved!)
But that was only half the battle — I still wanted to let the world know that I’m genderfluid, especially so I could start publicly talking about my experiences on Instagram (at the time, I was just starting to be more visible on the platform, and I wanted to be fully real and authentic in the stories I was sharing).
So, on April 6, 2020, I posted a photo on Instagram where I shared that I am genderfluid, which falls under the non-binary umbrella, and that I was scared to share this, but I knew that it was so rooted in my body that I couldn’t keep it to myself any longer.
As with before, I was met with support and love. And I am so thankful every day that this was the response, as I know so many others don’t experience this. But had I not been so supported, I may not have felt comfortable sharing about my life online, which has now become such a staple and joy of my existence. Wherever you are in your journey of discovering yourself and coming out, I see you, and I am here for you. It’s so hard to be vulnerable, but the feeling of living your true, authentic life is worth it all!
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